waiting & wondering: adoption update

well, friends, it has been a while since we've given an adoption update mostly because things were taking a while to get checked off of the list and move us into the time of waiting.

but now, now we are waiting. waiting and wondering when, and having no idea what time-frame we're looking at.

that said, we have decided to be presented to a birth mama this week. this is the first time we're presenting our profile for consideration and there are so.many.emotions. swirling around right now.

we have no idea how many families are presenting in this situation, and no idea what the likelihood of getting chosen is.

we have no idea.

and that's really it. we have no idea about any of it. we really have to trust in God's timing. period. not just in this, but obviously in this. because we have no control.

we've only been in this waiting stage for a couple of weeks, and it is already hard.

it's hard to not know.
it's hard to live in the tension.
it's hard to try to keep living and not worry about it, but also be ready for anything at any time.

it reminds me a lot of our years of struggling with infertility.
it's not the same. {not at all.} but it is reminiscent.

all of that said - would you please, please, please pray for us. pray for this birth mama - not that she would pick us necessarily, but that she would pick the family that will be best for her baby. that she will be comfortable with her decision, and that God would be at work in her life and her heart.

she is in a much harder place than we are right now. a much harder place. pray for grace for her.

pray that we would be patient in the waiting, and trust God's timing. pray that he would prepare us to be parents again to our child - whenever he/she comes. pray for the upcoming transition for our family from two to three kids, and pray for the birth mama/family as well as our not-yet-here child.

i've been drawn to baby things again in these last couple of weeks as we've been in the waiting stage of this process. it's crazy to think about all of the different possibilities. we could get matched fairly early-on in a pregnancy, or right before or after birth.

there are so many unknowns.

leaping is scary, but we're taking it and we're trying really hard to trust.
right now i have that feeling in my stomach like you do when you're at the top of the pit fall, and you don't know how long the ride is going to hold you there before you drop.

we're just waiting with bated breath.
so, please pray!

xoxo