just because

it seems like i should write right now. we have a fire in the fireplace, the christmas lights are on both inside and out, and the remnants of a big family dinner still remain on the table. it smells like "christmas cookie" thanks to my yankee candle, and all the presents are wrapped and under the tree [except for the three that should arrive tomorrow or tuesday at the latest!]. it's finally finally finally starting to feel a bit more like christmas. like, maybe i can relax a little bit and enjoy it for a while. maybe.

i've figured out a few things over the course of the past few days. some that i already knew, and some that didn't occur to me ever before. one reminder was how anxious i can get if things aren't finished. i can't fully relax. even if i "should" for all intents and purposes. now, however, with the presents wrapped, and the family dinner served, and many of the plans planned, now i can enjoy the cozy fire, under a blanket, with winking lights all around me.

i think that's part of what i miss about christmas now. christmas break used to be a full break. break from school. sleeping in. less responsibility to worry about, and more relaxing. i'm hoping now -- for the next couple of weeks -- it will be a nice, relaxing, enjoyable, and somewhat productive time. there are a lot of things going on in the world today. there are a lot of things going on in my world.

some are good. some, not so good. but for now, i'm going to try to focus on the good. that's my christmas resolution. [why wait til new year's?] i want to focus on the good.

what do you want this christmas? not want you want to find under the tree, but the intangible things that make a huge difference. what changes are you willing to make in your own life?

i need to answer that myself.
let's focus on the good, shall we?


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