sometimes i think...

...i underestimate myself. but then again, sometimes i think i overestimate myself.
so maybe i do neither. maybe how i think about myself is right on target.
but that thought is laughable.
how many of us think accurately about our own self?
truly?

and how many of us look around on a daily basis and notice
someone whose head has grown incredibly large for no reason at all?
on the flip side are those people who are geniuses, but no one ever told them so.
so they make their way through life without living up to their potential.

sometimes i think i overanalyze every single situation.
[and then my hubby confirms my suspicion.]
i get so caught up in my own head,
but i do not understand.
how can the world be so backwards?

why is it so hard for me to be happy for someone else
when they have what i want? what i want, but i cannot have...
maybe that's why.
because i cannot have it.
shouldn't i be happy for them anyway?
because something happy deserves happiness.

i'm trying so hard not to try so hard.
this song lyric from canon blue is stuck in my head.
isn't that the way it goes, though?

what happens when you over-think it?
you get lost inside your own head,
trying hard not to try so hard.

and then you end up trying so hard that you
crash and burn.

and what you want is farther away than it
ever was before.

it's just like anything else.
look at something for what it is.
do not cheapen yourself by groveling.
or by sacrificing more than  it's worth.

you wouldn't pay $1,000 for a knock-off
because it's not the real thing.


don't settle for a cheap imitation.
don't settle for being less
when you could be so much more.

"so God created man in his own image,

in the image of God he created him;

male and female he created them."

-genesis 1:27 [esv]